Now days, It is so easy to give but even easier to take because most of this world's population has been raised with no respect for others...Manipulation is easy and disregard for feelings is easier.
How do you tell someone who is a big part of your life, that you just need space for awhile? Maybe for forever...even more so how do you tell that to more than one person? Or an even heavier question, how do you tell people who are apart of your everyday life? people who you constantly give so much of yourself to, people that have been apart of you for 22 years of your life...people who you love so dearly but those people dont seem to share the same type of love that you give to them...I think our world has lost their sense of what unconditional love really is...What do you think it is?
I'm doing what I am doing for my kids....I don't want their sense of what a family is, to be confusing. I don't want my babies to think in order to hold a conversation with someone, they have to talk about themselves, I don't want my children to think the world owes them or to think that they have to compete for love and affection.
I don't want to be who I was raised by.
I want my kids to grow into respectful human beings, to not only have respect for their parents, but for others as well. I want them to always love me and know I am here for them day or night, no strings attached...I want them to know true family values and to always be proud of who they are and where they came from and most of all, to know their worth.
This is going to be the hardest decision I truly have ever made and as much as it may hurt others, it will hurt me most because of all I have done and given...I have exhausted every bit of heart I have had for these people...they have exhausted the means I have for them...
I hope for some understanding in my choice.
We are all human beings who face trials. Its who stays by us willingly, and still loves us the same if not more, that matters. The ones who are here for us thru every stage of our lives, the ones who drop everything to hold our hand, the ones who carry our burdens with us so we arent carrying them alone and the ones who suppress our sadness and anger...those are the people we keep close to us. Those are the ones who matter most. But of all the people we meet, of all the people who we speak to and visit...Our spouse and children are who become first.
